解放

学会放下是精彩，

学会放弃是收获……

放下，

是一种心态的选择；

放下，

是一门心灵的学问；

放下，

是一种生活的智慧……

放下压力，

获得轻松；

放下烦恼，

获得快乐；

放下自卑，

获得自信；

放下懒惰，

获得充实；

放下消极，

获得进取；

放下抱怨，

获得舒坦；

放下犹豫，

获得潇洒；

放下狭隘，

获得自在…

重要

什么最重要？

自己开心最重要？

关心的人开心最重要？

一直困扰着我

在心里

虽然不会影响到心外面的东西

可是还在找着那平衡点

麻痹？

想哭

来试探自己麻痹了没

全世界好只有我疲惫

无所谓

反正难过就敷衍走一回

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰

会不会

让我忘了你是谁

累不累？

睡不睡？

单影无人相依偎

邻居

哈哈

其实不知道eh

感觉上你最近很emo

我也不懂要如何跟开口问你怎么了

反正你也会说你没事

我只想跟你说

我一直都在你个隔壁啊

有没有事都可以找我

就好像你跟我说的

“I'm always here for you"

=)

所以

我是个男的

我有肩膀，虽然高了点

我有双耳朵，虽然有时听不清楚

我有双眼睛，看到你的表情

懂maaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?

BEST FRIEND MA

shadow

if there is no one in the heart

everything will be okay

even you're all alone by yourself

if there is a shadow of someone in the heart

it will be very pathetic

all your heart will be only looking for the someone

blindly and disappointed

though there will be still some pleasant moment in it

if there is a someone living in the heart

that will be another completely different story

hah!

today my feelings got deeper

i don't know whether it is right for me right now

but I feel how I feel

I wanna keep it right now

hmmmmm..

SO

today's conclusion

is that

I

hahahahasssssssss

very much

let's hope good things happen!

ADIOS~

如果

如果

我可以牵着她的手到处逛逛

冷的时候抱着她

她烦的时候我能随时帮忙

她伤心时就在她那支持她

她开心时看着她笑

她生气时做她出气筒

想说话时说说心事

照顾她，也被她照顾

随传随到

时时都想着要找她

可是不会一直找她

学煮菜，有时下厨煮给她吃

她也可以有时煮给我吃

她要知道的东西都让他知道

她不想说的东西我不想听

认识他的朋友，喜欢她的朋友

记得她喜好，讨厌的

天天都给她一个大大的笑容

尽我全力得逗她笑

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

以上纯属本人想象，若有看了不能够接受

sorry lo

哈

是她

就是她

心照咯

不用问咯

也不要乱讲咯

bye

huh!?

I'm lucky enough to know everything

so that I know who fucking tell LIES

who tells the truth

your amazing~

Oh her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining

Her hair

Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Yeah I know

When I compliment her

She wont believe me

And its so

Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay

I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

Her nails

I could kiss them all day if she'd let me

Her laugh

She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know

Id never ask you to change

If perfect is what you're searching for

Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking

If you look okay

You know I say

When I see your face

There's not a thing that I would change

Cause you're amazing

Just the way you are

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

Cause girl you're amazing

Just the way you are

:D :) :| :\ :( :'( :'C

i can be cheered very easily

hahaha

so fast and so deep

??

erm

yeah

positive!

improve improve only first la!

what also don't think!

and better focus on your studies also eh!

ya la

I X X X la

cannot meh!?

pointless

but don ignore la hahaha

-_-

I need to talk

anyone

especially my brothers

I have feelings too

why its like nobody bothers

fuck it

I'm gonna talk to myself

想

天

第一次看到，不错

后来，依然不错

再后来，哇哇哇

后后来，惊艳

然后就，内外都不错

再然后，开始想了

接下来

睡前想

起来想

出去想

回来想

吃饭想

喝茶想

自闭想

热闹想

忙着想

闲着想

开心想

emo想

无时无刻想

可惜

HAIH

死啦

中毒

慢慢

深入

DIU LO

使

AUS

Its been a month already eh

At first, I'm not that homesick although I prefer Malaysia more la

but life here is unbelievably relax and sleepy

and all of the above I have already type it in months ago

now continue la ha

hmmm..

I'm still relaxing here, listening to music and waiting for my housemate to wake up and?

dinner?

don't know

recently, I can't sleep well because I starting to feel that my bed is too small for me

then I will start to think of something, a lot of things

AND THOSE ARE SECRETS HAHA

i wanna interrupt this blog a while

"I know that this might sound crazy cause you don't know my name"

"But we can't, we can't tell the future, no"

alright finish interrupting

here we go again,

feelings are coming again

and hmmmm

you know you can neal

fucking face your fear!

SCREW DRIVER, SPANNER, HAMMER

i feel like continue another time

wordless now haha

SEE YA

感受

我今天说实话

真的有失望，难受，不是很开心

为什么要睡迟

虽然我知道只能怪我自己

我也不能怪你们啦

就

我也不知道

当你们说你们都不去时

真的有失望

真的做什么都没趣了

就算去唱也不会爽，不会开心

我前晚还真的满怀期待的

想说，

uni 和 平时 的好朋友都会见到

我会难受是因为

在这里的时日已经不多了

想找你们相处多些

不管是uni或旧朋友

尤其是uni

知道以后都很难在见面了

所以想珍惜

短短的一两年

我们就那么要好了

在uni里我有另一面的我

所以和你们在一起有开心

其实我都不想skip class 的

可是我真的很sohai地睡迟

在学校还蛮开心的

可惜不会再有机会了

今天最后一堂

没去

我很想吊我自己

我一起来就很不爽自己

妈的！！！！FUCK YOU THING JEN WEI

我

想

见

你

们

全

部

现在，最近，近况，相变

已经不想被这种思想拘束了

放得下也是男子汉

算了吧

一切都有点难

我真的有很ego下

会很不服气

会想要一鸣惊人

会想表现

会lan yeng

会计较

计较我是会改的

要努力啊！！

在每个方面

自己

家人

女人

朋友

钱

地球

忧郁

其实也没有好忧郁的

我没有什么好损失的

i got nothing to lose

because

I GOT NOTHING

i wish

i wish

i could have

a girl

beside

ME

haha

GOTCHA!

expression

HOW CAN I FUCKING EXPRESS MY FEELINGS!!!???

DAMN

why?

nothing happened

but i feel like crying

change!

I wanna challenge myself to break some of my freaking bad habits

which are lazy to work out

lazy to take care of my health

lazy to finish work early

SO! FROM NOW ON

ALL THESE WILL BE TRANSFORMED INTO

work out harder

be healthier

have my work done earlier!!

words

words are like weapons.

and sometimes they are really weapons

which could be harmful to people, things, relationships and whatsoever

so, from now on

I will try my best to talk about things which are true, with love and positivity

I do not wanna hurt anyone anything any relationships between anyone

words can cause war, i mean REAL WAR

and

I shall

stop assuming

stop taking anything personally

anything from others is just nothing to myself

I want to be a HAPPY man

PURE man

REAL man

feelings

physically have not recovered from the illness

and here comes the inner feeling

i wonder whether i can just get out from this THING

if i just could keep the fucking damn distance from it

i would not have felt like this

if things don't change

i guess i will eventually fall for it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

its weird that sometimes i can see things at the good angle but not the bad

but every time when the good ends, bad comes in double or triple the impact

its like I'm an optimist but the end I'm still the pessimist that i always was,

just like what I was when I was younger

I thought i have changed much

but there are still some part of it remains

and it has deeply buried in me

its hard to take away

thats the origin of me

sometimes there are something that we wanted so badly

but still we can't get it no matter what

its not something physical

its............ i don't know

maybe we can call it spiritual

not ghost thingy la

but mentally

I'm so

EMPTY

so, any solution?

I guess I know how to solve it

but I haven't met the "fate" that could possibly solve it

ah~

relax la Neal, Mike and Thing Jen Wei

急

哎哟~

刚刚跟我说了这么多，

害到我现在一直想很多东西咧

要读书没心情，睡觉睡不着了

不要乱想，那是我妈

她跟我述说了公司的很多问题

虽然我知道她也只是想说下而已

没有要给我压力

可是我有种冲动想要马上毕业

就去帮忙咧

唉，可是不能拉，一定读完书先

吸取足够的知识再去拼

可能你们会觉得我还酱年轻，做么要酱快投身工作

可是，去拼不代表我不会继续过年轻的生活啊

其实，责任上，兴趣上，志愿上

我想去帮我老豆老妈手

其实真的不会幸苦

我发奋了啦!

然后

就是找女朋友

哈哈

运动先

离别

我想，我可以知道荣琪的感受

原来昨天的见面后就是大概好几年的离别了

虽然不是我最好的朋友

可是也算是不错的好朋友啊

荣琪就更不用说，还有他其他好朋友也不用说

都一定会有很强烈的不舍吧

也不知道可以说什么

就再见了

我也就快要飞了

也就快当个去外面读书被这里的家人朋友想念了

有点害怕

人聚人散

是自己的选择？

是命运的安排？

都是吧

开始想念一些人了

不管在哪里的

都想念了

想明天就见见你们

可是，明天我又会有段小小的离开

到我们的邻国

嗯

有个人

我想

嗯

New Start

okay~

this is a new place

and i duno how to change a better template

while all of my frens with blogspot have some awesome background thingy

so who can help me with this shit? 

LOL hahahahahaha