physically have not recovered from the illness
and here comes the inner feeling
i wonder whether i can just get out from this THING
if i just could keep the fucking damn distance from it
i would not have felt like this
if things don't change
i guess i will eventually fall for it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
its weird that sometimes i can see things at the good angle but not the bad
but every time when the good ends, bad comes in double or triple the impact
its like I'm an optimist but the end I'm still the pessimist that i always was,
just like what I was when I was younger
I thought i have changed much
but there are still some part of it remains
and it has deeply buried in me
its hard to take away
thats the origin of me
sometimes there are something that we wanted so badly
but still we can't get it no matter what
its not something physical
its............ i don't know
maybe we can call it spiritual
not ghost thingy la
but mentally
I'm so
EMPTY
so, any solution?
I guess I know how to solve it
but I haven't met the "fate" that could possibly solve it
ah~
relax la Neal, Mike and Thing Jen Wei
