why?

nothing happened

but i feel like crying

change!

I wanna challenge myself to break some of my freaking bad habits

which are lazy to work out

lazy to take care of my health

lazy to finish work early

SO! FROM NOW ON

ALL THESE WILL BE TRANSFORMED INTO

work out harder

be healthier

have my work done earlier!!

words

words are like weapons.

and sometimes they are really weapons

which could be harmful to people, things, relationships and whatsoever

so, from now on

I will try my best to talk about things which are true, with love and positivity

I do not wanna hurt anyone anything any relationships between anyone

words can cause war, i mean REAL WAR

and

I shall

stop assuming

stop taking anything personally

anything from others is just nothing to myself

I want to be a HAPPY man

PURE man

REAL man

feelings

physically have not recovered from the illness

and here comes the inner feeling

i wonder whether i can just get out from this THING

if i just could keep the fucking damn distance from it

i would not have felt like this

if things don't change

i guess i will eventually fall for it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

its weird that sometimes i can see things at the good angle but not the bad

but every time when the good ends, bad comes in double or triple the impact

its like I'm an optimist but the end I'm still the pessimist that i always was,

just like what I was when I was younger

I thought i have changed much

but there are still some part of it remains

and it has deeply buried in me

its hard to take away

thats the origin of me

sometimes there are something that we wanted so badly

but still we can't get it no matter what

its not something physical

its............ i don't know

maybe we can call it spiritual

not ghost thingy la

but mentally

I'm so

EMPTY

so, any solution?

I guess I know how to solve it

but I haven't met the "fate" that could possibly solve it

ah~

relax la Neal, Mike and Thing Jen Wei

急

哎哟~

刚刚跟我说了这么多，

害到我现在一直想很多东西咧

要读书没心情，睡觉睡不着了

不要乱想，那是我妈

她跟我述说了公司的很多问题

虽然我知道她也只是想说下而已

没有要给我压力

可是我有种冲动想要马上毕业

就去帮忙咧

唉，可是不能拉，一定读完书先

吸取足够的知识再去拼

可能你们会觉得我还酱年轻，做么要酱快投身工作

可是，去拼不代表我不会继续过年轻的生活啊

其实，责任上，兴趣上，志愿上

我想去帮我老豆老妈手

其实真的不会幸苦

我发奋了啦!

然后

就是找女朋友

哈哈

运动先

离别

我想，我可以知道荣琪的感受

原来昨天的见面后就是大概好几年的离别了

虽然不是我最好的朋友

可是也算是不错的好朋友啊

荣琪就更不用说，还有他其他好朋友也不用说

都一定会有很强烈的不舍吧

也不知道可以说什么

就再见了

我也就快要飞了

也就快当个去外面读书被这里的家人朋友想念了

有点害怕

人聚人散

是自己的选择？

是命运的安排？

都是吧

开始想念一些人了

不管在哪里的

都想念了

想明天就见见你们

可是，明天我又会有段小小的离开

到我们的邻国

嗯

有个人

我想

嗯

New Start

okay~

this is a new place

and i duno how to change a better template

while all of my frens with blogspot have some awesome background thingy

so who can help me with this shit? 

LOL hahahahahaha